…When the last soprano notes fades from the mandolin’s body and the player’s eyes stay closed until the applause dies down.
…You find your foot tapping, though you can’t remember making it start and you think briefly, “Will I stop it?” (but you don’t)
…When you realize the person in front of you said what they said — and laughter, a smile, and words are all fighting for bandwidth.
Spaces in between.
Those instances filled with feeling that you couldn’t manufacture for all the planning in the world.
I was lucky enough to have spent the entire weekend filled with moments like these, reminded of the charmed, rich, and emotionally wealthy life I lead. When you wake up one day and know that you must be living right to find yourself surrounded by people who continue to offer you these moments — you realize a few things:
- What’s worth having can’t be bought.
- The price of admission to such a life is only your heart, your friendship, and then acknowledging those two things in others.
- That when you let people who don’t fit fall by the wayside and into someone else’s life, you make room for the people who will and can change everyone’s life.
And though this is my first post written as a woman on the North Side of 30, I can’t think of a better place to tell you that YOU are my birthday gift. The life you’ve allowed me to live for the past 5 years since I started moving my thoughts on the digital page has been phenomenal and more than I could have ever imagined.
YOU are the reason I do this. And I never forget that you’re the reason I can continue to do it.
I thank you for bringing your friends. For sharing each post you share. For the comments. The “likes.” The laughter. The random pictures of hedgehogs. Cool links. Powerful stories shared. You are, collectively, an RSS feed of OSSUM and you make my life brighter. You challenge me to be better, to reach higher, and most importantly, be myself. So I have an announcement.
On January 15, there’s something coming. A new look, purpose, and destination (yes, destination) for this site. Inspired by you, built to serve you, and to give the entire RedheadWriting community more of what its been asking for. It’s been a long time coming and is currently in progress…but you’ll see a new daily destination, powered by me and designed to get you from where you are to “Fuck Yeah” by whatever means necessary. I do hope you don’t just love it…I hope you crave it, share it, and come to be even more comfortable there than you’ve been here.
So, I’m just going to leave a video for the only song that could possibly be used to usher in my 40th year. If you haven’t heard it. I know you’ll appreciate it. If you’re at the office, headphones please…or not.
And thank you — for YOU — and for being the best gift a girl could ask for. May you find your moments in between in the coming days and year.