That’s neither here nor there, but strangely applicable this morning. FML.
Last night, I’d just left dinner with a lovely man. We’d decided to duck a few doors down the block for a warm cuppa, as the ambient temperature in Denver was hovering somewhere in the low 20s. We were chatting, laughing, no more than 15 steps outside the door of the restaurant…
WHAM! REDHEAD DOWN!
I guess I’d caught some ice (or some jackass ghost came along and gave me a shove) and I went from Vertical Myrtle to Flat Fiona in an instant.
We laughed. He helped me up. I looked at my hand that had broken the fall once inside — red and all owie. He kissed it. We sat.
This morning, I have an epic bruise on my ass — and a story to tell about Revisiting Einstein.
Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. ~ Albert Einstein
Might I ask — how insane are you?
When we sit down and look at our lives, we all have lists of things we’d like to change. Things we’d like to see change. From how we make a living to how our hearts are handled. Time with family and friends to how they treat us. Hours we spend going fast versus those spent slowing down.
Popping the bubble we’re in so we can reach everything we see…outside.
We all have that friend that dates the same guy or girl over and over again. They inevitably end up in front of us, across a chat screen, phone call, or cocktail, and we bear witness to the same story with the same characters. Sometimes the names even change.
And we play the role of That Friend — to our friends and to ourselves. And we keep asking, lamenting:
Why is nothing changing!?! (generally slurred due to skewed balance of blood and alcohol)
Well, it’s because we’re insane. We’re doing the same thing, over and over again, and expecting different results.
I’m just as guilty as anyone, truth be told. As each year passes, though, I feel I’m getting better. I’m becoming less insane.
So today, I’m sending you into the weekend with an ass-kicking wish. I wish for you to reduce your level of insanity and design the life you envision for yourself. Maybe it’s an epic playground filled with honey badgers, hedgehogs, and echindas — all in top hats singing show tunes. It could be a mosh pit filled with everyone you thought was cool in the 80s with Skinny Puppy blaring in the background.
Whatever life you envision, it’ll never happen unless you tell insanity to go the way of New Coke and trash that movie you always throw in the DVD player when you’ve allowed yet another epic unworthy ass cactus*** to break your heart. Someone needs to be fired — and chances are, it just might be you. Isn’t it time to revisit Einstein and see what kind of insanity you’re creating for yourself?
To say yes when you would generally say no
Stay silent when you might have previously spoken
Realize that silence and excuses aren’t the same thing as interest and excitement
And say “fuck it” when you might have previously offered up nothing more than a pile of excuses that all sound like “can’t”.
Einstein was a pretty smart motherfucker — and so are you. So why are you willingly making yourself insane?
As the hour grew late last night, we gathered our things and put on our coats, the spent carcasses of a hot chocolate and chai left lingering on the table. We stepped outside and he looped his arm through mine with a comment about not repeating the “Redhead DOWN!” incident of not so long ago. And he walked me to my car like that.
And I can tell you — there was another time not so long where I would have said, “It’s OK – I’ve got it.” After all – I can walk my damn self to my damn car on my own, can’t I? Sure I can.
But I have to say — I liked it. And for a very chilly two-minute walk last night, I felt a less insane than I’d felt in quite some time.
*** hat tip to Amber Naslund for “ass cactus”. The only thing better would be hearing her say it.